Living Life Beautifully

 It is a truly beautiful day outside.  The sun is shining and the temperature is so nice that I have my old farmhouse windows open.  I can feel the breeze as I sit in my kitchen from my table.  My table is an antique from my husband's Aunt.  When we moved to this house we took the table and added 6 1/2 inches to the legs.  Then we painted the bottom half and refinished the top.  This last week we painted the top white instead of trying to refinish it again after 14 years of use.  I don't know if it will last but it's nice for now.  I always seem to put a lot of stuff on top of my table because we don't have a lot of counter space in our kitchen but right now, while I let the table top cure, I'm noticing how nice it is to use the table without so much clutter. Bruce is out doing lawn jobs for the day and I have a long list of chores that I need to do.  Living on a 2 and a half acre farm with chickens, quail, ducks, and rabbits is a lot of...

 It is a beautiful Friday in January.  The sun is shining and the chickens and ducks are all talking outside.  We had rain a few days ago so the gravel driveway has its low spots full of water, which the ducks love.  They swim in it as if it were their own special pond.  so fun to watch. I woke up this morning later than normal because Bruce and I watched TV until late in the evening, so he was already gone when I came into the kitchen to make my coffee, then I headed into the dining room to do my morning journaling.  We had gone to a doctors appointment yesterday and then went to visit one of our boys in his new apartment. I was writing about a family that I had the pleasure of speaking with in the waiting room of the office. It was a grandmother, her grandson and then her daughter walked in.  The grandmother was not feeling well and her age had made it very difficult for her to walk into the office without the help of her grandson.  I was watchi...

 It is a beautiful hot day outside.  Texas weather in the summers are not for the faint of heart, that's for sure.  But it is truly beautiful.  We've had a good amount of rain through June so the grass is still green, which doesn't usually happen by July.   I don't blog often.  I unintentionally hurt someones feelings with a blog post and I don't want to do that again so I am very nervous blogging about anything.  I created this blog page to try and heal myself and maybe help anyone else who might be going through the same circumstances.  I have depression that has been my constant companion for a good part of my life.   So most of my blog posts are my way of working through my depression.  I have a hard time feeling safe in many situations.  A good amount of that was because of how our home felt when I was young.  I had precious parents that weren't good at communication.  I don't think they knew how to be any o...

 I'm sitting on my front porch swing and it is a truly beautiful day.  The breeze is amazing and the sun is shinning.  I have the beauty of trees all around me and birds are singing.  Then, on occasion, I can hear a rooster crow or an egg song being sung.  At times you can hear the entire flock of chickens going off for some reason or another.  They cry wolf so often, to their own detriment, and when you run out to see what is wrong it can sometimes be a butterfly in their area flittering about.  So, at times we just get tired of going out, stay inside, only to find there was something actually wrong.   I am sometimes really hard on myself when it comes to the house and property.  I start to look at it with my mothers eyes and hear her telling me what a failure I am at keeping it nice.  I can hear my dad telling me to have Bruce fix this or that as if he is disgusted at us for letting it go.  Why do I do that to my self? Are my...

 I was dropping my husband off to get his car fixed and I was listening to news on my phone.  It was so funny to listen to all the man made drama almost like little boys playing divide and concur.  There was so much talk of running out of money for this and that and then some news about testing a new missile or something.  I was thinking how funny that was to say you have no money but then spend thousands or more on testing a new missile.  Then they had all this talk about the border and razor wire and keeping people out and I thought, "stay out of our sandbox!".  Boys playing with their toys and not wanting those other kids to play, as if they are bullies not wanting to share.  In the real world it is not play and there are many issues, but they ARE man made issues.  They are immature issues of people who refuse to be nice.  We don't want to see that.  We want to think these are all issues out of our control as if we don't contribute, b...

 Oh the joy of blogging!   It is a beautiful Tuesday after noon.  The chickens are going off all around me and the chihuahua is doing his regular complaining because the temperature isn't within his degree of comfort and neither is his kennel inside.  He's about 17 years old going on 90.  I have the movie "Julia and Julia" playing in the living room and I'm sitting on the front porch swing.  The breeze is so nice. I've been on a new path lately that has been a fun challenge.  In an effort to create more peace in my thinking, I've been  working on reading books by authors like Eckhart Tolle, Dr. Wayne W. Dyer, and Richard Rohr.   I had an evening in mid December, where my mind lit up to something I can't quite explain, but I knew right away it was what some people call enlightenment.  It felt like a part of my brain snapped and I was suddenly given a new understanding.  If you've ever heard anyone say something about it, yo...