Living Life Beautifully

 It is a beautiful hot day outside.  Texas weather in the summers are not for the faint of heart, that's for sure.  But it is truly beautiful.  We've had a good amount of rain through June so the grass is still green, which doesn't usually happen by July.   I don't blog often.  I unintentionally hurt someones feelings with a blog post and I don't want to do that again so I am very nervous blogging about anything.  I created this blog page to try and heal myself and maybe help anyone else who might be going through the same circumstances.  I have depression that has been my constant companion for a good part of my life.   So most of my blog posts are my way of working through my depression.  I have a hard time feeling safe in many situations.  A good amount of that was because of how our home felt when I was young.  I had precious parents that weren't good at communication.  I don't think they knew how to be any o...

 I'm sitting on my front porch swing and it is a truly beautiful day.  The breeze is amazing and the sun is shinning.  I have the beauty of trees all around me and birds are singing.  Then, on occasion, I can hear a rooster crow or an egg song being sung.  At times you can hear the entire flock of chickens going off for some reason or another.  They cry wolf so often, to their own detriment, and when you run out to see what is wrong it can sometimes be a butterfly in their area flittering about.  So, at times we just get tired of going out, stay inside, only to find there was something actually wrong.   I am sometimes really hard on myself when it comes to the house and property.  I start to look at it with my mothers eyes and hear her telling me what a failure I am at keeping it nice.  I can hear my dad telling me to have Bruce fix this or that as if he is disgusted at us for letting it go.  Why do I do that to my self? Are my...

 I was dropping my husband off to get his car fixed and I was listening to news on my phone.  It was so funny to listen to all the man made drama almost like little boys playing divide and concur.  There was so much talk of running out of money for this and that and then some news about testing a new missile or something.  I was thinking how funny that was to say you have no money but then spend thousands or more on testing a new missile.  Then they had all this talk about the border and razor wire and keeping people out and I thought, "stay out of our sandbox!".  Boys playing with their toys and not wanting those other kids to play, as if they are bullies not wanting to share.  In the real world it is not play and there are many issues, but they ARE man made issues.  They are immature issues of people who refuse to be nice.  We don't want to see that.  We want to think these are all issues out of our control as if we don't contribute, b...