Living Life Beautifully

I was reading an article online about people who are perfectionists. It said something about how a perfectionist thinks, if everything is perfect, nothing will go wrong. It was, what Oprah calls, an aha moment for me. I have issues with perfectionism and guilt. For some reason, I think I can fix everything, given the chance. I believe there is always some way to make everyone happy. In this same article it had a woman who ended up with breast cancer and for some reason she thought she could have prevented the disease and felt guilty for putting her family through it. I don't have company at my home often because I think the house has to be perfect. I feel like I will be judged by my home, and maybe they won't like me. I feel like my children will be judged by my home. I remember when I was at the childrens museum, when my kids were little, and I struck up a conversation with another mother. The first thing she asked me was where I live and I was afraid to tell her thinking it m...

My legs are crawling and I can't sleep. Now I have the hiccups. It's just not my night. I had a really good day today. Nothing spectacular, just very productive. I enjoyed posting photos of the twins as babies and looking through all those picture. I was thinking how wonderful it is that God gave us pictures. I must say the most important thing in my home, other than my family and pets, would be my pictures. They aren't all that fancy or even well taken, but they display memories of days gone by, that are precious. When the doctor told Bruce and I that we were having twins, it was very cool, until I looked over at my husband and his face was a white as a sheet. Two babies. A single pregnancy is already such a miracle, but two. I remember going to Blue Bonnet Palace to watch Jay Eric and my friend Selena told me she thought I was having twins, even before I knew. By the 4th month I got tired just standing in the kitchen making myself a sandwich. My stomach was stretched beyo...