It is a beautiful day today.  
The birds are making all kinds of cool sounds.  
Everything is green and the roses in my garden are all starting to bloom.
The temperature is perfect and there is this wonderful breeze.

Even when the day is cloudy I try to look at it with appreciation.
For about 8 years I have been fighting illness.  
My parents divorce and all that came with it took a tole on my body and my moms passing seemed to finish me off.
In this last year I have been diagnosed with auto immune diseases that are pre lupus.
It seems every month I have more pain and new symptoms, no matter how much I take care of myself.
The reality that as time goes by I will hurt more and more....makes me want to enjoy each and every day NOW and everything God lays before me. 
I try not to think of what things will be like in a few years.  Each and every day I lay my life before God and pray he heals me or gives me knowledge on how to slow the progress of my AI disease.  
I get scared and I will have a good cry and then I put it back into Gods hands.
Some days are good and some days are not.  But every single day I have hope that I can get another disease into remission like I did the Graves' disease, and God will bless me with more years.
This is my reality.

My life now is very slow.  
I smell the roses all day.  
I adore my family.  
I spend a lot of time talking to God.
I breathe the air and ignore the drama.
My house is a mess and needs repair, but I just don't care
.....because 5 years from now things might be very different for me.  
So I'm going to enjoy today.
Hugs


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