What will this year bring?

It is the start of a new year......
And... it has been a challenge so far.
It always seems so hopeful when a new year starts.  It feels like you have the opportunity to start over and do it all right.  The actual fact of the matter is that very little is up to us.  We can do our best but life has it's moments that go far beyond our control. 
It is such a wonderful thought to have a spirit of peace and go with the flow.
To spend each and every day looking at the beauty and blessings of life and ignore all the bad.
The reality is, that the bad comes, and you can't stop it.
You go through it for a time and then you pull your bootstraps up and go on with trying your best to do your best and think of the beauty and blessings of life again.

This year we will lose our insurance,  we have had to use all our savings for medical bills, owe way to much property tax at the end of the month, we lost our sweet tiny cat Maggie, and we feel overwhelmed and down in the dumps for the week.
Also.... I ran out of this really wonderful organic jungle coffee that we got for Christmas. I never thought I would get so unhappy about being out of really good coffee.

It's getting to that time where I need to pull up my bootstraps, but I'm too tired.
I could sleep the day away today.  I probably should.
My head says, "Come on Shannon. Get your butt in gear. You have dishes and mess and a tree to deal with.".  My heart says.  "Go curl up in your cozy bed and let this day softly flow past you.  The dishes, mess and tree will all be there for you tomorrow".
I haven't decided who to listen to yet.

It is cool and wet outside.  The house is so quiet.
My lap is empty.  I can't remember the last time I sat down to blog with an empty lap.
Gosh...  That get's you.  I will miss that sweet little girl.
Yesterday we buried her next to her sister in the garden. 
God blessed me to have that sweet little girl for as long as I had her.

Today will be a beautiful day.  No matter what I choose to do for the day, it will be beautiful.
I am so very blessed to have all that I have. 

My sweet cousin sent me a little box of cards the size of playing cards.  It's called 101 blessings to brighten your day and uplift you soul.  Every once in a while I pull out a random card.
I just now pulled out one that says, "Being a praying woman does now mean that you'll never have bad days.  It means you are willing to find the beauty even in the ugliest days."
I love when God reiterates what I just typed out.

Have a great day.
Love
Shannon



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