Living Life Beautifully

I was talking to my cousin this evening, over e-mail, about what lessons God wants me to learn with some of the things that have happened in my life.  I am pretty hard on myself, so it's not hard for me to imagine all kinds of issues He would want to correct about me.  If I were to write my own list, I would say that I wish I were less sensitive. I wish I didn't break down into tears as often as I have in the last 6 years, since my parents divorce. I wish I didn't feel I had to fix things. I wish I weren't so hard on myself. I wish I was more outgoing. I wish I was not so scared of situations and people. I like that I think people are good. I like that I forgive quickly. I don't like that I take everything personally. I think I talk too much. But I love that I listen well. I love to hear someones story.   When I say, "how are you?"  I want to hear the truth.   I've been through a lot of things and maybe something I've experienced can h...

It's pretty late at night.  My brain won't slow down so I can sleep.  Last night I was up til dawn trying to sleep due to my mind racing and my legs crawling. It's been a difficult week. I could write all these things down in my journal next to my bed, instead of typing it into a blog for everyone to read, but I remember being a young girl, and young wife, thinking I was the only one who felt this or that.  I remember wishing I could have learned from someone's mistakes instead of making them myself.  I wished someone would have told me.......... and then maybe this or that wouldn't have happened. My blog posts are not always fun to read, and they usually don't make me look too great, but I post them because I know they might help someone else. Sometimes it feels like God is unhappy with me, that he lets me go through so much in my life.  And then I think of some of the things that other people go through that is so much worse, and I feel bad for comparing ...