Inventory
I was talking to my cousin this evening, over e-mail, about what lessons God wants me to learn with some of the things that have happened in my life. I am pretty hard on myself, so it's not hard for me to imagine all kinds of issues He would want to correct about me. If I were to write my own list, I would say that
I wish I were less sensitive.
I wish I didn't break down into tears as often as I have in the last 6 years, since my parents divorce.
I wish I didn't feel I had to fix things.
I wish I weren't so hard on myself.
I wish I was more outgoing.
I wish I was not so scared of situations and people.
I like that I think people are good.
I like that I forgive quickly.
I don't like that I take everything personally.
I think I talk too much.
But I love that I listen well.
I love to hear someones story. When I say, "how are you?" I want to hear the truth.
I've been through a lot of things and maybe something I've experienced can help.
I sing, but I don't like attention. I would be happy to stand behind a curtain.
When I think of the lesson's I have already learned, I can see a few.
I used to be more sensitive than I am. (although, after my parents divorce I think I went back to before)
I used to be extremely shy.
I used to try to be my mother with the kids and house...... I am better being me.
I used to be "user friendly" because people only had use for my friendship if they needed me for something.
I have matured.
I am a better wife.
I am a better mother.
I know how to install sheet rock, float, texture, restore flooring, tile, etc..... :)
My home is a mess most days. My family is very laid back. We don't obsess over much of anything, although my husband can get a little obsessed about anything having to do with music and gets himself in trouble because of it. And he is very protective of his family. There is good and bad in that sometimes.
We like being together and it gets pretty goofy at home.
I feel like I have a lot to learn. I wish God could send me a text telling me what I was supposed to learn in each situation. I wish He could send me a long letter telling me what He thinks. I know the bible is His LONG letter, but I would love to REALLY hear what He thinks. I would love to hear what I'm doing right. I wish I could erase the things I've done wrong. I imagine going to Heaven and having Him open a very large book with a list of everything I've done that wasn't what He wanted me to do. I dread the idea of it. I wish I could just hear, "well done".
I want desperately to do the right thing.
Sometimes doing the right thing takes time and effort. It frustrates me when people aren't willing to take the time and effort to do what they know is the right thing. It frustrates me when people do what is easy instead of what is good. That is my curse. I should be ok with what is easy and let go of what is good. All good things come from working on it. In my relationship with my husband there is a lot of communication. With my children there is a lot of communication. Sometimes we have to deal with issues. We work through it. It is what makes us a great family. You have to do the work to have something great. You have to be willing to work together, compromise, forgive. You have to find the good in others because no one is perfect. I have a friend who has issues in her marriage and has given up on even trying to fix it. I think that is the problem with the world today. People aren't willing to do the work.
If you want to make something great, or be something great...You have to be willing to do the work.
I wish I were less sensitive.
I wish I didn't break down into tears as often as I have in the last 6 years, since my parents divorce.
I wish I didn't feel I had to fix things.
I wish I weren't so hard on myself.
I wish I was more outgoing.
I wish I was not so scared of situations and people.
I like that I think people are good.
I like that I forgive quickly.
I don't like that I take everything personally.
I think I talk too much.
But I love that I listen well.
I love to hear someones story. When I say, "how are you?" I want to hear the truth.
I've been through a lot of things and maybe something I've experienced can help.
I sing, but I don't like attention. I would be happy to stand behind a curtain.
When I think of the lesson's I have already learned, I can see a few.
I used to be more sensitive than I am. (although, after my parents divorce I think I went back to before)
I used to be extremely shy.
I used to try to be my mother with the kids and house...... I am better being me.
I used to be "user friendly" because people only had use for my friendship if they needed me for something.
I have matured.
I am a better wife.
I am a better mother.
I know how to install sheet rock, float, texture, restore flooring, tile, etc..... :)
My home is a mess most days. My family is very laid back. We don't obsess over much of anything, although my husband can get a little obsessed about anything having to do with music and gets himself in trouble because of it. And he is very protective of his family. There is good and bad in that sometimes.
We like being together and it gets pretty goofy at home.
I feel like I have a lot to learn. I wish God could send me a text telling me what I was supposed to learn in each situation. I wish He could send me a long letter telling me what He thinks. I know the bible is His LONG letter, but I would love to REALLY hear what He thinks. I would love to hear what I'm doing right. I wish I could erase the things I've done wrong. I imagine going to Heaven and having Him open a very large book with a list of everything I've done that wasn't what He wanted me to do. I dread the idea of it. I wish I could just hear, "well done".
I want desperately to do the right thing.
Sometimes doing the right thing takes time and effort. It frustrates me when people aren't willing to take the time and effort to do what they know is the right thing. It frustrates me when people do what is easy instead of what is good. That is my curse. I should be ok with what is easy and let go of what is good. All good things come from working on it. In my relationship with my husband there is a lot of communication. With my children there is a lot of communication. Sometimes we have to deal with issues. We work through it. It is what makes us a great family. You have to do the work to have something great. You have to be willing to work together, compromise, forgive. You have to find the good in others because no one is perfect. I have a friend who has issues in her marriage and has given up on even trying to fix it. I think that is the problem with the world today. People aren't willing to do the work.
If you want to make something great, or be something great...You have to be willing to do the work.
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