Challenging
Challenging morning.
We lost a sweet little hen this morning. She was a failure to thrive baby. They just don't really grow.
When she would get out of her cage she would run to me and stand between my feet waiting to be picked up. In the last few days she's lost a lot of weight. Those are the ones that touch your heart.
Bruce and I were doing our reading today and it had me thinking of many things.
Success... Have I been successful in any of my talents? It's so funny when I think about it because I only get so far. I sing, but have never been great at it. I make things but have never sold a lot of it. I grow the greenest garden that does not produce much fruit. I raise amazing chickens and end up with every possible obstacle. I have built a home that at the moment is beyond what I can care for. I restored a home with my husband that falls apart faster than we can repair it.
And then, of course, I got sick.
The reading today was about asking yourself if you feel like a failure. I started by saying yes.
Each question, I kept saying yes. I work as hard as I can possibly work and yet I thought in that moment that I was failing. But then I stopped myself and I told my husband that my answer was not that I was failing but that I was learning.
I have succeeded in building a home and raising 4 amazing boys.
I have succeeded in keeping a marriage healthy for over 30 years.
I have succeeded in learning to be creative and make beautiful things.
I have succeeded in serving God with my voice for most of my life in church.
I have succeeded in learning so much about these beautiful birds than I ever thought I could.
I have succeeded in creating a beautiful garden.
I have succeeded in learning how to build and restore two homes.
I have succeeded in learning how to do much out of little.
I have learned to live in any circumstance or obstacle.
Some days I feel like God is telling me that I am only to care for my family and anything beyond that is not going to work. I manage my illness with some great tools but I also feel my illness progressing some days. It can become very defeating at times.
I am reading the parts of my blog that I printed into a book. It's interesting to see where I was at a different time in my life. My ideas were different based on my knowledge at the time. I'm interested in seeing how far I grow and follow the story of my life through those 10 years. I wonder how many posts will talk about my parents divorce and show my state of mind.
Today is a challenging day. I will overcome this day.
I will overcome this challenging time.
I will look back on this post and remember where I have been.
I will see the craziness of my life and the resolution.
I hope to see a much simpler, gentler, calmer, organized life.
But you never know what God has in store. It may turn out that he is preparing me, teaching me, to handle more. This thought is concerning. LOL!
Have a wonderful peaceful Saturday.
Hugs
Shannon
We lost a sweet little hen this morning. She was a failure to thrive baby. They just don't really grow.
When she would get out of her cage she would run to me and stand between my feet waiting to be picked up. In the last few days she's lost a lot of weight. Those are the ones that touch your heart.
Bruce and I were doing our reading today and it had me thinking of many things.
Success... Have I been successful in any of my talents? It's so funny when I think about it because I only get so far. I sing, but have never been great at it. I make things but have never sold a lot of it. I grow the greenest garden that does not produce much fruit. I raise amazing chickens and end up with every possible obstacle. I have built a home that at the moment is beyond what I can care for. I restored a home with my husband that falls apart faster than we can repair it.
And then, of course, I got sick.
The reading today was about asking yourself if you feel like a failure. I started by saying yes.
Each question, I kept saying yes. I work as hard as I can possibly work and yet I thought in that moment that I was failing. But then I stopped myself and I told my husband that my answer was not that I was failing but that I was learning.
I have succeeded in building a home and raising 4 amazing boys.
I have succeeded in keeping a marriage healthy for over 30 years.
I have succeeded in learning to be creative and make beautiful things.
I have succeeded in serving God with my voice for most of my life in church.
I have succeeded in learning so much about these beautiful birds than I ever thought I could.
I have succeeded in creating a beautiful garden.
I have succeeded in learning how to build and restore two homes.
I have succeeded in learning how to do much out of little.
I have learned to live in any circumstance or obstacle.
Some days I feel like God is telling me that I am only to care for my family and anything beyond that is not going to work. I manage my illness with some great tools but I also feel my illness progressing some days. It can become very defeating at times.
I am reading the parts of my blog that I printed into a book. It's interesting to see where I was at a different time in my life. My ideas were different based on my knowledge at the time. I'm interested in seeing how far I grow and follow the story of my life through those 10 years. I wonder how many posts will talk about my parents divorce and show my state of mind.
Today is a challenging day. I will overcome this day.
I will overcome this challenging time.
I will look back on this post and remember where I have been.
I will see the craziness of my life and the resolution.
I hope to see a much simpler, gentler, calmer, organized life.
But you never know what God has in store. It may turn out that he is preparing me, teaching me, to handle more. This thought is concerning. LOL!
Have a wonderful peaceful Saturday.
Hugs
Shannon
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