Trying again....

 Yesterday was a rough day full of bad memories and thoughts.  People will tell you to just let it go but I've learned that you have to feel the bad stuff and work through it.  

I blog about my thoughts.  

I am a communicator.  I talk a lot.  I share because I always felt bad as a child and I wished someone would have saved me.  I didn't like myself.  I was bullied.  I always had stomach problems from being nervous about having to deal with people. 

I used to blog a lot more but some things happened that made me stop.  So now I am incredibly nervous to share my thoughts.  I have no enemies.  I hate no one.  I try not to talk about anyone.  My issues are MY issues and I blog about non specific things most days.  At times I have no idea what the subject will be about until I start typing.  I share to my facebook page because I keep my friends list small and there are no threats there.  I get about 5 or less people who read them and that's ok with me.  So if your reading this or the last one I did, which I nervously deleted, and you find it offends you because maybe I'm talking about you.... Please stop reading my blog.  

I'm not the type of person who goes to all my friends and bad mouths others.  If someone doesn't like me then that's ok, just don't tell me.  I have people who don't talk to me for whatever reason and that's ok.  I can't be what everyone wants me to be.  

I fear that one day I will be too sick to live a good life...... It is an overwhelming and scary thought, that I could be in a wheelchair or unable to get out of bed.  And then I had a friend pass away who was my age with a husband and two young children.  I have another who is getting a transplant to save his life.  Life is so short, so get the tattoo..... 

So, I'm gonna try this again.  Thanksgiving is almost here and then Christmas.  Be as kind as you can be to those you love.  Try not to gossip about others because you don't know their full story.  Don't hurt someone because your stressed or ticked off with your life.  That's just my opinion.  And God's.

I pray your November is blessed beyond measure.

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