Living Life Beautifully

This was written over a month ago........ In my last post I was discouraged.  Things had been overwhelming and it felt like I couldn't find God. I couldn't see him in my life the way I have before.   I've gone through times where God is elusive, many times before.  I know that it is not God that is elusive but me.   So I prayed with a pleading heart that God would help with all that is going on.  I prayed with that heart that almost hurts for God.  I prayed in that desperate way that you do when your child is seriously hurt or sick.  And then... you see God.   It always amazes me when He can finally reach me.  It's like my phone line to him was too busy for him to get through.  My mind was too full of all that was going on.  And then there he was.  At that moment I felt like He was helping me to see that life can change.  Circumstances can change.  Why do we think we are so powerless to change things?...

 It has been a hard few months, or rather years, for almost all of us. I listen to my children talk about their lives and I listen to what friends are going through and my heart breaks for all of it.  I look at my own life and I wonder where God is. I know a lot of people don't believe in God because they feel like a loving God would not allow the suffering that they see and feel all around them.  I think it is easier to believe that God does not exist.  If they believe, then it's hard to understand. For a person who believes, they can get discouraged when God doesn't make Himself known and felt. We can feel abandoned. That is where I am now. With everything that is going on in the world it feels like God is elusive.  I can't find Him. I have felt His presence in my life so strongly at times that I know He exists.  I never understand why He disappears.  So many say He never disappears but that we just have so much going on, we can't see Him.  We g...

 Gosh, I was just thinking about back when I started this blog.  I had this great hope of helping people find their version of a beautiful life.  I wanted to share my struggles and challenges and let others know they were not alone. I wanted to share how life gives us some situations that are common to many but many don't talk about them, such as the challenges of depression, family struggles, the way the mind interprets things and makes them larger than they are.  I wanted to walk through those things and help others to see that it worked out ok.  If a friendship is lost or a relationship is strained, then maybe it's a necessary boundary for us to move on to better things. Living Life Beautifully was an idea of taking what is not so pretty and taking steps to make it beautiful.  I still believe it is possible in any life to make it beautiful.  So I'm going to admit that my life right now is chaos.  Not so beautiful.  It lacks time with my hu...