Venting

Some days I wish I had no outside responsibilities. I think life would be so much easier. Dealing with others can make us nuts because we are all human and made differently. Between worrying if I upset someone, or what to do when someone upsets me.......I'd like to just run away.
I guess it's what we must do, but sometimes I wish I could take a break.
This year has been a difficult one. It's funny when I look back at my almost 21 years of married life and count up the huge mountains we've had to climb. Between, financial struggles, a difficult twin pregnancy, financial struggles, raising those twins, a remodel of our former home in which we had to do most of the work ourselves and live in the mess, financial struggles, a miscarriage, our home flooding when I was 6 months pregnant, did I mention financial struggles, two years of my mother in law being incredibly sick, taking on our current house project, my parents divorce, and church issues, not to mention all the little stuff in between, and the huge stuff I won't discuss.......I can honestly say...I'm tired. I'm sure I'm not even half way done with what I'm going to endure in life, but WOW, I'd love a break.
I can't complain about everything. I am blessed beyond what I deserve.
I'm just tired. This week has been no exception.
We've had so much happen this week.
I want to enjoy Christmas. I don't want to have to deal with insignificant stuff.
Blah!!!!!

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  1. ShannonDecember 11, 2009 at 4:34 PM

    I had a talk with a friend and a good long cry..... feel much better.
    Hugs to all.

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