Being the best you
I love the fall. The weather makes a huge difference in my mood and makes the house feel like something out of an old photo.
I told someone once that I love when my house looks like something out of a historical romance novel. After I said it, I realized how true that actually is.
I always say I was born in the wrong time. It's as if I was born back in the late 1800's, (where people cared about their moral character), and was carefully frozen, only to be woken up in the late 1900's. The busy race to be wealthy, beautiful, live in a big fancy home, drive the fancy car, and have your children placed upon a pedestal for all to see, makes me dizzy.
I've been watching the "Oprah's life class" show, for as long as my tv provider allows. Each show really makes me think. I realize that I live a great deal of my life based on what others think. I can honestly say I'm doing better, but I still do some things based on that little voice in my head. That voice is from years and years of what we see and hear from friends, family, and the world. The idea of keeping up with the Jones family. When you think of your life, how much of it is you being who you are and how much of it is you being who you think your supposed to be based on what you've been told or seen? Do you do what you love or what you think your supposed to do? Do you dress the way you love to or do you look in the mirror and think "will they think I look fat in this"? Do you keep your home the way you want or do you look at it and think about what others would think of the clutter you have? Do you drive up to pick up your kids at school and worry that you don't have makeup on, your car isn't clean, your car isn't nice, your car sounds like it's falling apart?
Do you shop at the store and look at others to see if they are looking at you as if you don't belong there? Do you feel your not enough? Do you feel your value lies in your looks or what you have?
The other attitude I see is the "I don't care" attitude. I've seen people who do what they want and don't care what you think.... but seem angry about it. I don't want that attitude either.
I want to love who I am, flaws, dirty house, no money, crazy kids, old car, lots of clutter, lots of animals, loves to wear pj's, and all.
I want to look in the mirror when I'm 30 pounds over weight, no makeup, hair needing coloring, pj's and all...and think I'm great.
I want NOT to hear the voices of judgment in my head.
I want NOT to feel the guilt.
I think it will take me years to find that peace that surpasses all understanding. But I know God is taking me through that lesson every day.
It's funny that I think my best quality is also my worst quality.
I care too much. I think about things too much. I want everyone to be happy. I want everyone to be happy with me. I want everyone to have what they need. It seems crazy to see people who have an over abundance of money, things and food...and then there are people who have no money, things or food. It frustrates me that someone can go shopping and spend so much in one day...and someone else could use that money to live for a year. And all of this is because of what people do to be accepted. It is so crazy to think of.
When you hear about the economy and how bad it is, I think about how good it was and the fact that "what goes up must come down". Common sense tells me we are too materialistic and maybe we need to change how we live. Maybe this is a lesson God wants us to learn. Maybe he wants us to learn to live on less because the world is still growing. Maybe he has a plan that we need to learn to share and balance things out a bit because, if we don't, the world can not continue to do well.
I think everything is a lesson.
I think we will all look back and see why these things had to happen the way they did. I want to be on the right page. I want to learn from this and not keep thinking that our government is going to pull us out of this, but instead, God is trying to teach us something.
I need to learn to be the best I can be, and yet, be who I am. I want to learn to be the best ME I can be.
God made us unique and here we're all trying to be the same.
Have a wonderful day everyone.
Hugs
Shannon
I told someone once that I love when my house looks like something out of a historical romance novel. After I said it, I realized how true that actually is.
I always say I was born in the wrong time. It's as if I was born back in the late 1800's, (where people cared about their moral character), and was carefully frozen, only to be woken up in the late 1900's. The busy race to be wealthy, beautiful, live in a big fancy home, drive the fancy car, and have your children placed upon a pedestal for all to see, makes me dizzy.
I've been watching the "Oprah's life class" show, for as long as my tv provider allows. Each show really makes me think. I realize that I live a great deal of my life based on what others think. I can honestly say I'm doing better, but I still do some things based on that little voice in my head. That voice is from years and years of what we see and hear from friends, family, and the world. The idea of keeping up with the Jones family. When you think of your life, how much of it is you being who you are and how much of it is you being who you think your supposed to be based on what you've been told or seen? Do you do what you love or what you think your supposed to do? Do you dress the way you love to or do you look in the mirror and think "will they think I look fat in this"? Do you keep your home the way you want or do you look at it and think about what others would think of the clutter you have? Do you drive up to pick up your kids at school and worry that you don't have makeup on, your car isn't clean, your car isn't nice, your car sounds like it's falling apart?
Do you shop at the store and look at others to see if they are looking at you as if you don't belong there? Do you feel your not enough? Do you feel your value lies in your looks or what you have?
The other attitude I see is the "I don't care" attitude. I've seen people who do what they want and don't care what you think.... but seem angry about it. I don't want that attitude either.
I want to love who I am, flaws, dirty house, no money, crazy kids, old car, lots of clutter, lots of animals, loves to wear pj's, and all.
I want to look in the mirror when I'm 30 pounds over weight, no makeup, hair needing coloring, pj's and all...and think I'm great.
I want NOT to hear the voices of judgment in my head.
I want NOT to feel the guilt.
I think it will take me years to find that peace that surpasses all understanding. But I know God is taking me through that lesson every day.
It's funny that I think my best quality is also my worst quality.
I care too much. I think about things too much. I want everyone to be happy. I want everyone to be happy with me. I want everyone to have what they need. It seems crazy to see people who have an over abundance of money, things and food...and then there are people who have no money, things or food. It frustrates me that someone can go shopping and spend so much in one day...and someone else could use that money to live for a year. And all of this is because of what people do to be accepted. It is so crazy to think of.
When you hear about the economy and how bad it is, I think about how good it was and the fact that "what goes up must come down". Common sense tells me we are too materialistic and maybe we need to change how we live. Maybe this is a lesson God wants us to learn. Maybe he wants us to learn to live on less because the world is still growing. Maybe he has a plan that we need to learn to share and balance things out a bit because, if we don't, the world can not continue to do well.
I think everything is a lesson.
I think we will all look back and see why these things had to happen the way they did. I want to be on the right page. I want to learn from this and not keep thinking that our government is going to pull us out of this, but instead, God is trying to teach us something.
I need to learn to be the best I can be, and yet, be who I am. I want to learn to be the best ME I can be.
God made us unique and here we're all trying to be the same.
Have a wonderful day everyone.
Hugs
Shannon
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