Living Life Beautifully

Ah.... Let us see if this blog post crashes and burns like the last one did. I can honestly tell you I have no idea what I'm going to blog about. I have no subject in mind. So....  We will see what comes out of my head. I'll start with what a beautiful day it is outside. I'm in the kitchen at the table looking out two large windows onto the garden. The garden is really a mess.  It needs organizing and cleaning up.  I have random junk laying around along with a hose that has three splices, one leak, and about 20 kinks in it.  I should name that hose.  It needs to be a name that fits it's extremely annoying personality.  I could call it the cursing hose, although the hose is not the one that curses when we use it. My pond has no fish.  None.  They died.  It was sad. I think the frogs over produced in it.  I need less lily pads and more fish. I need fish built like a Tonka truck. My kitchen table is full of stuff...

I'm re reading a book called "Quantum Wellness" by Kathy Freston. I read this book years ago.  I don't remember much about the book but I see that I underlined quite a few things in the first few chapters.  I can't read much at the moment because of my eyes.  I get about 30 minutes before they get blurry. So...I thought this might be a good book to read in small sections. What I noticed, is that I read the book before I did counseling. So....I'm getting a little more out of what I'm reading. I also notice that I'm doing what the book says to do. In fact...I've been doing what the book says to do, for quite a while, and didn't know it. The idea is pretty simple.  It's kinda like the butterfly effect. Small things can lead to big changes. Baby steps.  She says, "Our development is an  unfinished and ongoing story", "We are creating ourselves and our world as we go". Where are you now, and where do you want to b...

It's cloudy and wet outside but still a really pretty day and a little cool. I've already fed chickens, the cat and let the dogs out.  I've walked the garden and pulled some weeds. I've made my coffee and drank it. I'm not sure what to do with the day. Yesterday I rested from all the Easter ness. I love my little family.  We had Taylor on skype for most of the day but I miss him. It's funny carrying around a computer so he can see all the silliness and listen to all the conversations. I look forward to when he's on leave and can visit again.  We usually get that once a year because he's so far away.  This year our youngest graduates from High school.  Then, I am officially done with that stage of life.  I have been a mom for almost 27 years. I'm not sure life would have been all that great without those precious little adventure makers. Gosh I adore them. The garden is growing.  The neighbors chickens did a  number on my carrot/spin...

Today is the day after palm Sunday. We had church service lasts night and the message was about truly realizing what was done for us. He talked about how life is eternal for people who believe.  How we leave this earthly body and "into God's hands we commit our spirit". Luke 23;46. "Into Gods hands" really got me.  Pastor Ray painted this picture of God holding Jesus like a beloved sleeping child who felt safe and content. When my mom passed away I had just gone home to nap.  I don't know why I left the house.  I was there the entire time and then, knowing she would pass soon, I went home and fell onto my bed completely exhausted.  I got a call that she was about to pass and I drove to the house.  She had been gone for three minutes when I got there.  I walked over to her bed and I cheered.  I cheered. My family all looked at me like I was crazy.  But in my eyes, I was the only one who had the right response to my mom's passing....

It is another absolutely beautiful day outside!!! Although....I tend to think every day is beautiful in it's own way.  But today it really is beautiful in a more popular sense of the word.  :)  Blue skies, sunshine, warm and a soft breeze. I'm in the kitchen.  I was unloading and loading the dishwasher while watching "the Secret" on Netflix.  If you've ever watched it....it's a very different way of looking at things.  I think I agree with much of it.  I know that different attitudes can effect my day.  I know that I used to believe too much in what I was told I should be.  I was supposed to be the perfect wife, who cooked dinner every evening and kept her children in line.  I was supposed to train my husband to be a certain way.  I was raised to wear makeup every day and look nice for my husband, to keep a perfect home.  Children weren't supposed to make messes outside of their room.... etc...... I learned that all those t...

At the moment, I'm sitting at my kitchen table looking out at my garden through two windows.  It's cloudy outside and in the low 70's.  It has the look of a winter day, even though we haven't had much of a winter here in Texas. The garden is a mess of weathered plants and weeds.  There are a few good things growing, like mint and rose bushes.  The bulk of last years produce has frozen off to leave a bunch of dead sticks and lots of potential for the next spring garden.  I'm going to make a lot of changes this year.  I will fill the beds with homemade compost and rotate my planting to see if I can get a better bug free yield. I haven't totaled up the produce from the last year but I'm pretty sure it was double the year before. I think growing a garden is one of the healthiest things I've ever done for my mind.  The hope and excitement you get from a seed that is sprouting and getting to harvest and eat your own food, feels almost like a miracle of n...

It is the start of a new year...... And... it has been a challenge so far. It always seems so hopeful when a new year starts.  It feels like you have the opportunity to start over and do it all right.  The actual fact of the matter is that very little is up to us.  We can do our best but life has it's moments that go far beyond our control.  It is such a wonderful thought to have a spirit of peace and go with the flow. To spend each and every day looking at the beauty and blessings of life and ignore all the bad. The reality is, that the bad comes, and you can't stop it. You go through it for a time and then you pull your bootstraps up and go on with trying your best to do your best and think of the beauty and blessings of life again. This year we will lose our insurance,  we have had to use all our savings for medical bills, owe way to much property tax at the end of the month, we lost our sweet tiny cat Maggie, and we feel overwhelmed and down in the d...