Living Life Beautifully

I've been sick for almost two weeks with what feels like vertigo. It has made my husband responsible for all my chores and he doesn't complain. He's really a good guy. We've been reading in some books, for the past many months, in an effort to spend time together talking and to learn.  It has become precious time.  Lately he's had to do the reading because I can't look at the words without feeling dizzy.  Today it lulled him to sleep.  Lol! One of the things that stuck out in one of the books was "Do for others and it will come back to you".  I've heard the phrase many times before.  It's not foreign or new to me.  But for some reason today it was heard with a different level of  maturity. I think, when you are someone who doesn't like to accept help but then you don't feel well.....  It sets off a different thought process. I am the worlds worst at letting people do for me.  I don't like it.  It makes me feel guilty.  It...

It's a really nice day. I have many things on my todo list that I hope to accomplish today, but it's ok if I don't. How frustrated, with yourself, do you get when you can't accomplish everything on your list? How frustrated does your spouse get when you can't accomplish everything on HIS/HER list? Bruce and I did some reading this morning on the boundaries book and read about resentment. How many times in a married life do we feel that awful feeling creep up? Your spouse doesn't do what you feel he or she should be doing, or you feel like they aren't pulling their weight.  They come to give you a kiss and you want to say, "PASS". I used to have my mom on the phone while I complained and she would tell me how I needed to yell at him for this or that, or how I shouldn't let him get away with that.  So your spouse comes home to an angry wife who goes off on him.  He's looking at you like your nuts and then asks if you talked to your mom...

Today I had the absolute privilege of going to a very dear lady's memorial. In life we meet people that make an impact that we can't forget. We can all think of someone who has a personality larger than life. Or a person who lights up when they see you. There are so many in my life that I have met through my walk with God. So many that, when I get to see them, it is such a joy. I was so blessed to see some of them today. And so very blessed to have known Loretta. This dear lady had a story..... a story that would touch your heart and make you cry. She endure things that I would not have survived.... and yet she came out of all of it with a faith that was so strong. God saved her. She had a love of people. She had a heart for people.   She had a hug that I know took even Jesus' breathe away. Today is going to be a good day. No matter what happens in the day, no matter what challenges I face... Today is going to be a good day. Any ...

Challenging morning. We lost a sweet little hen this morning.  She was a failure to thrive baby.  They just don't really grow. When she would get out of her cage she would run to me and stand between my feet waiting to be picked up.  In the last few days she's lost a lot of weight.  Those are the ones that touch your heart. Bruce and I were doing our reading today and it had me thinking of many things. Success...  Have I been successful in any of my talents?  It's so funny when I think about it because I only get so far.  I sing, but have never been great at it.  I make things but have never sold a lot of it.  I grow the greenest garden that does not produce much fruit.  I raise amazing chickens and end up with every possible obstacle.  I have built a home that at the moment is beyond what I can care for.  I restored a home with my husband that falls apart faster than we can repair it. And then, of course, I got sick. Th...

It is a beautiful Wednesday morning and it's HOT outside. This glorious Texas weather during the month of August seems to always be hot and dry. Praying for Rain!!!! So... I am in my new chapter.... In this new chapter of my life I've been working with motivational teaching. There are so many videos of speakers who have great ideas for improving the mind. There are so many tools to work with. The coffee I drink has been great with taking away my pain during the day. It gives me energy and focus, so I have the ability to do so much more and a good mood to go with it.  I should call it my magic coffee. Coffe coffee coffee coffee...….COFFEE!!!  (me singing) One thing I read was that you should focus on what you want and you will get more of that. If you focus on what you fear, you will get more of that. I also learned that with all the counseling and work that I've done on myself, my family can take me right back to that old person.  I begin to act automat...

Yesterday Bruce brought in some packages that had been delivered. One was from my cousin and I thought the other was something I had ordered online, until I looked at who it came from.  I realized it was my book.  I was so excited and part of me couldn't believe what I was holding in my hands.  I have dreamed of this for many years.  It felt amazing. When you start a blog and write posts here and there for 10 years, you can't imagine what all it has to say.  Part of you is a little scared to read it.  It's been a really hard 10 years.  I know what I've gone through in that time, but I have no idea how much of it came through to the posts, or as they are now.. pages.  But still...how cool!!! I decided it would be a smart idea to print myself a copy of everything and then read it and see what I had written.  Blogging can be about so many subjects or just someone's feelings or opinions.  Mine was about a journey and what I was learning....

Today is the begging of a new blog set of adventures. Last week I realized that I had been writing for 10 years. That is a really long time. I started this to share my growth.  And then I went through some crazy hard stuff during those 10 years.  So I decided I would have those 10 years of posts printed into a book. It should be interesting.  After I print it I will read it. Hmm... that will be interesting and maybe a little painful. I'm thinking I might go through it and pick the posts that are decent and put together a smaller book to print out to share.  I'm not sure I feel worthy.  But... I can't think that way. We are all imperfect and have a story to tell. I woke up with a lot of pain this morning.  Everything hurt.  It took a while to get out of bed. Move a little here, move a little there and then start some stretching. It scares me when my body hurts that bad.  Some days my knees are bad, some days my hands and wrists hurt...